I want to run away. I saw this post on Facebook that said I want to run away more as an adult than I ever did as a kid. Boy, that’s the truth! I sometimes want to give up. Throw in the towel. Call it quits. Just me? It’s that time of year when educators are back at school gearing up for the year to begin. It’s exhilarating and exhausting all at once. Yet, it’s fulfilling. Have you ever considered good stress? That’s what I feel about my job….it’s good stress. I love what I’m doing and I feel valued. I definitely become overwhelmed and frustrated at times as well. But mostly, I feel simply like I found my calling. Even in my calling, I sometimes want to run away. It’s not about one thing or one moment usually. It’s when things build up and I want to crumble and hide and disappear…..run away. I do sometimes wonder why life must be challenging. Having free will and being human isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. We rely on other humans to see things the way we want them to see them. But, when that doesn’t happen, challenges appear. We may choose to face those head on and create solutions or compromises…..or, we could run away and brush the challenges under the rug. I’m definitely a hindrance to myself because I choose to face things head on. It’s exhausting. And I think I become my own worst enemy because I have it in my mind that I am able to convince someone else that what I’m saying is the most correct way to think. Now, tack on the exhilarating exhaustion of going back to work at a high school following a summer of full time grad school classes. Oh, and lest we not forget returning to a situation where many questions get asked about what happened months ago. We may easily become overwhelmed and emotional. Yep, that’s me. I want to run away today. But I won’t. I’ll be fine. I always am. I just need a moment to not be fine. I’m always wondering what my purpose is….what is my future. Is this the path that gets me to everlasting happiness? I saw another post with a familiar saying…..the grass is greener where it is watered. Running away to a new lawn doesn’t solve anything if we haven’t learned how to water. I pray for my happy beginning that grows into a continual and blissful ending.