I can confirm that my life is most definitely not a Hallmark movie, as much as I wish it were. How do we know when God’s plan is before us? How can we possibly understand exactly why he brings people into our life, and why he takes them away? Listen, there are people that I’m glad God removes from my life. But that number is sooooo small. Then there are times that your heart breaks into a million pieces because someone whom you never expected would be gone is now not a part of your daily world. It’s heartbreaking and excruciatingly sad. You know, it’s funny because, in church one day, the Pastor mentioned that people often say God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. He then went on to say that it’s not quite the message that is in the Bible. He never actually said those words. Yet, we often experience things and people say Oh, God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. May I just call bullshit on that? If that’s the case, God clearly thinks I am so much stronger than I believe myself to be. And man, I think I’m pretty strong. I count myself in the nice girl camp. I try to treat people well and give everyone the benefit of the doubt…..always looking for the best in people. I’m a lover, not a fighter. After all, I am a Libra. I’ve never put much stock into the astrological signs, but hey, I do fit many of the Libra characteristics. Of course, I was born on the last day of the Libra calendar, so I do have a hint of Scorpio in me. I like to say that’s the bit of spice I embody!:) Listen, I fight for the things that are important to me. I’m extremely loyal and passionate about things and people that matter to me. I only have so much fight though. How do we know when to call it? How do we know when there’s no more fight left? How do we know when those we are fighting so hard for just don’t want us to fight? I’d love to know that answer. Daily, I’m faced with those questions. It’s so easy to say I’m praying for God to tell me what’s right. Yet, doesn’t God provide us with all the tools but then it’s up to us to use them? As I sit here, finishing a grad school paper about ethical dilemmas, and watch a Hallmark love story play out, I can’t help but wonder how do we really know anything? When you have that answer, please enlighten me! I only hope life hasn’t passed us all by as we try to wait for “really knowing.”