Full disclosure…….I’ve been really sick, so my mind has been all over the place. Seriously, I’m not sure I’ve been this sick ever. It’s crazy. So, on my first night of feeling like a partial human, I tried to catch up on grad school work and my actual pay-the-bills work and watched Bachelor in Paradise. Why? Because I’m that girl…… Yep, I love BIP. It’s drama, romance, stupidity, and entertainment all in one. Is it weird that sometimes I wonder what the 50-year-old version of BIP would look like? Honestly, that’s a show I could really get into. Let’s see people with real history and experiences trying to find their next happily ever after. That’s the hopeless romantic in me who just absolutely believes fairytales still exist. Yet, I don’t actually have evidence of the existence of fairytales. I just like to believe. In the 50-year-old version of BIP, we have bodies that have birthed babies and stood the test of time. We go to sleep at 10. Our idea of a good time is hanging out on the beach with a cocktail…..wait, that’s what the current show does! It’s a bunch of people hanging out on the beach and talking. What is reality? Is it really that we all have stuff we are trying to get through and we can’t just enjoy the moment or look to the future? Does looking to the future mean we aren’t enjoying the moment? Gracious, I hope not. I’m a dreamer. I love to think about what’s possible. I love to believe that life only gets better IF we are willing to dream. I find that sometimes I can get bogged down with the stress of life. I’m so behind on grad school work, not doing quite as well as I would like in this moment (thank you flu, infections and bronchitis), feeling overly emotional with all aspects of life, and having a short fuse with everyone. Yet, I dream of moments where I’m special to someone….where I am the most important person in the moment….where I’m the only thought in someone’s mind…..where someone understands me more than anyone…..where someone can’t see their life without me. Fairytale? Probably……. It’s funny, I am such a realist with so many things in life. I would say, at work, I dream of the impossible but stay with what’s real. In my personal life, I dream of the person who shows up at my work with a coke zero from chick fil a, just to brighten my day….no need to stay long, just thinking of me. I know, I know….that’s not reality. Sometimes I wonder why it can’t be though. Why can’t I have that text that says I can’t stop thinking about you?! Isn’t that all any of us wants. It’s what I try to show those in my life….that they are important to me. BIP shows us a fairytale…..a bubble of romance and drama (most dramatic season ever)…..but can’t we all have that reality AND fairytale if we choose it? What’s wrong with taking that leap of faith and diving in?